I Lose My Words And Paint

I am doing something different today. Let me explain. There are many times that for numerous reasons I can lose my words – I cannot talk, there are days that I cannot type them out either. My head will race with tons of words, but they seem to get lost in a black hole swimming in confusion and blocked up in my throat. It can be considered selective mutism, (I do have social anxiety.) in other cases I am not sure other than, I am too overwhelmed with emotion, anxiety, life, what have you and my brain gets jumbled causing me to shutdown.

It is kind of like my mind’s way of rebooting. During those times, I cannot articulate or express what I am feeling through word. Most of the time I have no idea what I am feeling. Many times, I feel that MUST get something out whatever something is. So I paint, or do scribbles/doodle shape things, or numbers other times I dance, but I am not going to record myself dancing and share it! 🙂

In recent days, I have lost my words quite a few times and I painted. I decided to look up “wordless  poetry” because that is what my paintings feel like to me. My expression of poetry through painting helps me find my words and then, I am able to capture them into written poetry … at some point.

As I searched about wordless poetry, I discovered Asemic writingwhich I had never heard of, but when I read about it something felt right. If that makes sense. I am going to investigate a bit more and see what happens. I naturally make infinities and squiggle-like things as a way of soothing my chaotic soul. I find abstract calligraphy intriguing. Here is another link that I found ASEMIC. If you are familiar with this type of expression feel free to share any info or thoughts!

In the mean time, here are some of my paintings that I have done recently and several from 2012. I have no titles because I had no words. 🙂

spiral brain

I used my hand for the background of this painting with multiple colors. I thought my hand looked cool. 😀 Here it is!

paint hand

squigglesI do not use these colors often, but I was feeling them with these ribbon-type infinities for some reason.

squggle sun




IMG_7707Sometimes I make flowers, not sure why, but it makes me feel happy. There are a few of my therapeutic wordless musings.

I also, want to extend a grand WELCOME to my new followers and an exuberant HELLO to my long timers! I appreciate very much that you are here and look forward to reading your blogs as well (newbies). (Old timers, you know I will pop around to visit. :-)) I am not always able to make it around the blog world on a daily basis, but I try to pop over at least once a week. See you then, and a Happy peace filled day to you all!

Back to your regularly scheduled wordy poems tomorrow, I think? 😉

About mindretrofit8

Sharing the twistings, and musings that twirl in my mind. Hoping others can relate, or at least enjoy... To know more about me personally you can visit my website at Mind Retrofit.
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24 Responses to I Lose My Words And Paint

  1. bert0001 says:

    Love your paintings!

  2. David Eric Cummins says:

    Your paintings are awesome! 🙂

  3. rbhexem says:

    Great paintings.

  4. Geo Sans says:

    sometimes painting
    moving the body
    communicates, heals
    so much more than words
    the feeling of paint
    on hands
    clothes, paper
    thanks for sharing

  5. prewitt1970 says:

    There are so many reasons for me to love this post, your paintings are lovely. The top one captured me instantly, I love the fact that you painted with your hands, love! loved it!!
    As always I look forward to your words, but it seems all the things your create are beautiful.

    • Benjamin! I am so honored to have you comment about my paintings. I do not consider myself a painter at all and I have been apprehensive about sharing them, but it just felt like “time” for some reason. 🙂 I have not painted often with my hands because in the past it was too much sensory overload for me, but interestingly this time around it was more soothing. Though, I had to get the paint off immediately after taking the photo! Hee hee Thank you so much for you kind words.

  6. Oh my gosh, i’ve lost my words looking at these paintings, they are absolutely beautiful. I really love your work! xo

  7. Rhonda L. Brockmeyer says:

    Beautiful Angel. I love them. The one that looks like seaweed and the or orange-glow moon are my favourites, but they all have something enjoyable about them.

  8. Incredible paintings Angel! And my favourite … your hand, as it will change each and every time! 🙂

  9. hotlilmess says:

    Took my breath away. Lovely.

  10. Jackie says:

    I love your paintings and would love to see more. 😀

    • Thank you Jackie! I think I may share more in the near future. I had not really considered it before this post, but now I see it as my other form of expression so possibly I will.

  11. words4jp says:

    These pictures are just lovely. Your use of color is stunning. I look at them and cannot pick out a favorite because they are all so beautiful. I can understand why you create them. Sometimes words or a voice do not come. If you think about it, this makes sense. They are part of us and we are human and sometimes humans are just stubborn;). Love to see the video!!

    • Thank you Kimberly! Painting is very therapeutic for me, it definitely helps my stubborn silence find words! 🙂 One day I may get the nerve to do a video … one day, MAYBE! I am not sure I will be dancing though. Lol!

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