Tumultuous Love

Tumultuous Love

We are at an impasse once again, You and me.
We wrestle all throughout history, it seems.
I look You straight in the eye, questioning Your motives.
I seek Your truth, Your long-awaited answers.

They do not come, You are silent.

That’s it!
I’ve had it!
You and me!
You are going down until you bless me!

My struggles, my questions,
all of my pains, are they Your pleasure?

You seem perfectly fine with all of my venomous speech.
You know all these people say I can’t talk to you this way,
I am not allowed to be real.

You seem accepting and kind as I lash out all of my doubts.
I will contend until I die to find out what is true!
Flailing on this floor, wrapped in Your mystery,
I am in awe.

There is no disrespect I spew forth,
only demanding why?
Will You not answer my simple request,
and lead me to my way?

You opened up all of this hidden in me,
with no path lit.
It seems we have come to cessation,
with this part of our relationship.

You have no fear, You hold me still,
in this strong full nelson.
It felt as if I wouldn’t escape,
but strength rose from a deep.

You are smiling at me,
as I move and wiggle myself free,
from this impossible grasp.

You are pleased with my struggle?

I am so angry with You!
But my heart still loves.
I will be tangled in Your fight,
for all of time.

The sun is coming up,
it peaks through Your eyes.
I am not done,
we’ve only finished round one.

Still You are silent,
don’t walk away!
I leap to grab You again.
We’ve hit the ground, flakes of dust.

Dirt covering my face,
Answer me!
Show me the way!
Stop smiling at me!

The longer I hold,
the more I see the answers are in the battle.
I seek for me to find my answers.

Think for yourself is the whisper You spoke,
as You let me fall.
I gave you the tools to know what to do,
I am here for you to wrestle.

Laying on the ground,
my body flat,
bruised a bit,
My gaze dwindled to the sky.

Round Two, did you hear the ding?

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Sharing the twistings, and musings that twirl in my mind. Hoping others can relate, or at least enjoy... To know more about me personally you can visit my website at Mind Retrofit.
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2 Responses to Tumultuous Love

  1. alienhippy says:

    Wonderful…I bet that felt good to write. 😉 xx
    Love you LOADS Angel, you know I do!!
    Lisa. xxx 🙂

  2. Angel says:

    Hi Lisa!
    Yes, it did feel good to write this, the best part was not having guilt about it!!

    Love you too!!

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