Afraid of Me

Afraid of Me

Now its discovered, I am not flawed,
What do I do with that?
Feeling wrong or at fault is all I ever knew.

How can I look in the mirror,
the face is not mine.
I am not who I was.

Who is this person with eyes?
I have never seen them before.
I don’t want you to speak.

Just leave me alone!
Who are you in there?
In the deepness of my soul?

What have you done?
Flawed is gone!
Give her back!

I know her…

Oh, look at me now,
what do I do?
I thought I would be happy,
with the new you.

I guess my fears will subdue,
once I embrace what is true.

Maybe this will be fine,
the fear of me will pass in time.

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4 Responses to Afraid of Me

  1. alienhippy says:

    Hello my friend,
    I couldn’t wait till tonight to read it so I opened it on my mobile in McDonald’s…giggle.
    This is very heartfelt Angel it gave me goosebumps. The fear will get easier, just keep turning to God and knowing you are His.
    I have days of complete shutdown with this fear of self. But it’s NOT who we are it’s how we have been made to feel within our NOT KNOWING.
    Keep it up my friend you are doing great.
    I’d be standing applauding you if I was home, but know I am applauding you with my mind, heart and soul. Just not in McDonald’s, they may lock me up.
    Love you LOADS.
    Lisa. Xxx šŸ™‚

  2. Angel says:

    Thank you Lisa!

    I had no idea just how much I was afraid of me, but I am writing through it and finding my peace. It still hurts though!!

    I feel like I am in Brain’s body suit!! Hee hee Ho ho Ha ha Boing!

    Love you too!

  3. alienhippy says:

    Well one of us has to be Brain while the other is being Pinky…Narf!!!
    Hehehe…sol’d I said NARF out loud in Game station using my Pinky voice.
    A middle aged guy wearing all black just gave me a look. I think he is too afraid to be himself…I know he’s Aspie my radar tells me these things.
    What are we going to do tonight then Brain, are you pondering? Shall I get the cat and the gravy?
    I’ve lost the bag of marbles, I’ve been shopping all day…LMHO.
    Oooo, Europe has just come on, it’s the final countdown..time to happy-dance.
    Thank God for my Blackberry, and empty shops.
    Love you loads. Xxx šŸ™‚

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