Ache

Ache

I seek the hope I once knew.
Lost love– tainted.
They stole You from me!

I am angry!
I am hurt!

How to get back?
It’s all changed now.

I don’t see You there anymore.
All of the old hang outs,
You are gone.

Wanting .

Step ladder to the sky has broken.
Vessels of truth,
Soiled.

Numbers!
Social inadequacy!
Numbers!

I can’t do it.
I fail,
Does that mean I fail You?

Veil dropped to the floor.
Whispers shroud me in doubt.
Can I even know You anymore?

Are You who they say You are?
Are You who I say You are?

Questions marks flood my mind.
Bandages covering my heart.
Rip them off and start again.

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Sharing the twistings, and musings that twirl in my mind. Hoping others can relate, or at least enjoy... To know more about me personally you can visit my website at Mind Retrofit.
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3 Responses to Ache

  1. alienhippy says:

    Angel my friend,
    this poem is a wonderful expression of feelings I can SO relate to.
    I am sending you an email because my comment got WAY too long.
    Love you loads. xxx 🙂

  2. Lac says:

    Thank you for sharing a link to your blog. I really resonate with this poem in particular. By the way, we are homeschoolers too..we just started in the late fall.

  3. Angel says:

    Hi LAC!

    I am glad it resonated with you. I am in a spiritual place where everything got all shaken up and now the pieces are falling back into place but much differently than before. I think mostly I am finally feeling the freedom to express myself without the fear of losing God. I really appreciate your blog and your journey that you are sharing.

    I really enjoy homeschooling the kids. They have taught me more than I them, I think! I hope it is going well for you and enjoyable as well. I bet it is, your blog expresses how much you enjoy your children! 🙂

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