Realization

Realization 

silence broke my fall,
fear ate at my marrow,
filling blood with qualm,
anguish chiseled my mind,
overflowing tiny holes,
deeply pounded with despair -
clustered clumps of doubt and shame

I stared; quietly into the lonely road
shadows lurked,
while blackish clouds hovered -
violently erupting,
a soul who was quietly tucked away;
protected in dread
catacombed in tricky webs

sticky and tight
sealing a voice;
desperately wanting to breathe
muted by fright,
caked; closed eyes -
able to see up, UP
from muddy waters

enslaved hands were able to move,
digging, scratching into the light
clawing with nails to prick at hope
clinging to the fork in the road
crushed; cast of an empty case -
it held nothing at all

protective gear; worthless
voice diminished of strength -
so, I thought;
realizing my collapsing skin,
peeled-wide! open heart -
truth escaped
barb wired wounds; on the back of my flesh
scraping my knees and palms,
down the dark road -
glowing with light

fresh air scalded; as my lungs filled with insight