I am doing something different today. Let me explain. There are many times that for numerous reasons I can lose my words – I cannot talk, there are days that I cannot type them out either. My head will race with tons of words, but they seem to get lost in a black hole swimming in confusion and blocked up in my throat. It can be considered selective mutism, (I do have social anxiety.) in other cases I am not sure other than, I am too overwhelmed with emotion, anxiety, life, what have you and my brain gets jumbled causing me to shutdown.
It is kind of like my mind’s way of rebooting. During those times, I cannot articulate or express what I am feeling through word. Most of the time I have no idea what I am feeling. Many times, I feel that MUST get something out whatever something is. So I paint, or do scribbles/doodle shape things, or numbers other times I dance, but I am not going to record myself dancing and share it!
In recent days, I have lost my words quite a few times and I painted. I decided to look up “wordless poetry” because that is what my paintings feel like to me. My expression of poetry through painting helps me find my words and then, I am able to capture them into written poetry … at some point.
As I searched about wordless poetry, I discovered Asemic writing, which I had never heard of, but when I read about it something felt right. If that makes sense. I am going to investigate a bit more and see what happens. I naturally make infinities and squiggle-like things as a way of soothing my chaotic soul. I find abstract calligraphy intriguing. Here is another link that I found ASEMIC. If you are familiar with this type of expression feel free to share any info or thoughts!
In the mean time, here are some of my paintings that I have done recently and several from 2012. I have no titles because I had no words.
I used my hand for the background of this painting with multiple colors. I thought my hand looked cool. Here it is!
I do not use these colors often, but I was feeling them with these ribbon-type infinities for some reason.
Sometimes I make flowers, not sure why, but it makes me feel happy. There are a few of my therapeutic wordless musings.
I also, want to extend a grand WELCOME to my new followers and an exuberant HELLO to my long timers! I appreciate very much that you are here and look forward to reading your blogs as well (newbies). (Old timers, you know I will pop around to visit. ) I am not always able to make it around the blog world on a daily basis, but I try to pop over at least once a week. See you then, and a Happy peace filled day to you all!
Back to your regularly scheduled wordy poems tomorrow, I think?